Bless myself

Well. Semester 5 had begun for about one week.

Everything is so far so good. And I think I should be start busy with my CAs

There are total six assignments for me. four group works and two individual's.

I should work harder because this is last semester for me.

If I can't pass thats mean I need retake again.Two months!

But I am sure this won't happen. I sure will pass all subjects

and continue my bachelor following year. :-]

I don't know what's wrong with me. Why I just so weak.I mean my characteristic.

I am good temper and always try to tolerant others. And I always hurting myself at last.

I am too easy affected by others too. By what their saying. How they views on me.

I am too care about how others look at me. And I always try to pander them.

This make me lost myself's thinking and let others thinking I am good to order about.  

I don't really like my characteristic. I am going to fix it. No matter how long it need.

I promised to myself. I won't let those gossip affect me again.

I'll try to build up my confidence and try to have my owns judgement.

I won't pander to those I really dislike again and I'll try to open my mind.

I just act as myself. I have to build up a new characteristic. I promised.

I'll make changes on myself and my life too.

I'll remember those people who hurt me before. I'll thanks to them for hurting.

That only make me become stronger after getting hurt.

I might be injured badly and I believe I reveal soon.

As my recover ability are stronger and faster.

Well. I know I can make it.

I won't let anyone to look me down again.

I'll prove that I am better than many people 

and I'll prove that I have ability to manage.

I'll be the one to control situation and others.

And I won't control by others easily again.

Bless myself. Prove myself. Understand myself more.