Blame It On Me

As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out and apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don't want to take responsibility for

I'm sorry for the times I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I'm sorry for the times that I had to go
I'm sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I'm sorry for the times I would neglect
I'm sorry for the times I disrespect

I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done
I'm sorry I'm not always there for my son
I'm sorry for the fact that I am not aware
That you can't sleep at night when I am not there
Because I am in the streets like everyday
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I am so proud to call you my girl
[Bridge]
I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me
[Chorus]
You can put the blame on me [4x]
Said you can put the blame on me [3x]
You can put the blame on me

Sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn't know what to do
Sorry that you had to go and sell those packs
Just trying to stay busy till you heard from Dad
And you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though Pops treated us like kings

He got a second wife and you didn't agree
He got up and left you there all alone
I'm sorry that you had to do it on your own
I'm sorry that I went and added to your grief
I'm sorry that your son was once a thief
I'm sorry that I grew up way too fast
I wish I would've listened and not be so bad
I'm sorry your life turned out this way
I'm sorry the FEDS came and took me away
[Bridge]

I'm sorry that it took so long to see
They were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I'm sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani
I'm sorry for the hand that she was dealt
For the embarrassment that she felt
Just a little young girl trying to have fun
Her daddy should never let her out that young
I'm sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
Enter 21 you know the club they say
Why doesn't anybody wanna take blame
For rising back out disgracing my name
I'm just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I'll take that blame
Even though the blame's on you [3x]
I'll take that blame from you

And you can put that blame on me [2x]
You can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me

Bless myself

Well. Semester 5 had begun for about one week.

Everything is so far so good. And I think I should be start busy with my CAs

There are total six assignments for me. four group works and two individual's.

I should work harder because this is last semester for me.

If I can't pass thats mean I need retake again.Two months!

But I am sure this won't happen. I sure will pass all subjects

and continue my bachelor following year. :-]

I don't know what's wrong with me. Why I just so weak.I mean my characteristic.

I am good temper and always try to tolerant others. And I always hurting myself at last.

I am too easy affected by others too. By what their saying. How they views on me.

I am too care about how others look at me. And I always try to pander them.

This make me lost myself's thinking and let others thinking I am good to order about.  

I don't really like my characteristic. I am going to fix it. No matter how long it need.

I promised to myself. I won't let those gossip affect me again.

I'll try to build up my confidence and try to have my owns judgement.

I won't pander to those I really dislike again and I'll try to open my mind.

I just act as myself. I have to build up a new characteristic. I promised.

I'll make changes on myself and my life too.

I'll remember those people who hurt me before. I'll thanks to them for hurting.

That only make me become stronger after getting hurt.

I might be injured badly and I believe I reveal soon.

As my recover ability are stronger and faster.

Well. I know I can make it.

I won't let anyone to look me down again.

I'll prove that I am better than many people 

and I'll prove that I have ability to manage.

I'll be the one to control situation and others.

And I won't control by others easily again.

Bless myself. Prove myself. Understand myself more. 

Believed

Day after day, times gone so fast

Time just walk and walk. it never stop for anyone even one second

thats why people always say we never to know what gonna happen next

we know second can changes a lot of things 

babies can be birth and lives can just disappear. 

Do you believe metempsychosis?

the soul will come back as newborn body after death of a body

Then who we are actually? we lived before?

Maybe someday we all will know. After our soul left our body

In Buddha

Peoples believed soul will come back as newborn life after they died

Peoples who are kind and helpful will birth in a wealth family 

owns everything and get things easily

and people who did a lot of bad things will birth as poor family and suffer in his life

or become animals or even stay in hell to suffer their sins.

Maybe thats why there are so many unfair things happen around us

some people born with wealth and power and some people are nothing

we can't blame anyone but that just our destiny 

it decided how should we live and what should we have

it decided our fortunes, opportunities, and every single thing we experience 

Can we try to rewrite our fate

maybe we can and maybe not

we must trust ourselves before we do anything

trust yourself can do anything successfully

trust yours ability to make the miracles happen

I starting changes my life because I starting trust myself

I sure can defeat anybody or anything that hold me back to success

I believed in miracles that I would create myself

I believed my owns. 

Mashed Potato

1. We used a blend of red and russet potatoes. This combination creates a slight texture variation in the finished mashed potatoes. Instead of having one consistent texture, you will create very small lumps in the mashed potatoes. If you prefer completely smooth mashed potatoes, this method still applies, but russet or Yukon Gold potatoes--with their high starch content--are the best mashers. (Potatoes with a high water content are better for frying or in potato salads, where they will hold their shape.) 
We used 6 potatoes, 1 cup heavy cream, 1/2 cup salted butter, and salt to taste.

2. Peel the potatoes, removing as many of the eyes as possible with the tip of your peeler. The skin and eyes, while containing additional nutrients, do not mash well. Remove and discard them. (If you prefer more rustic mashed potatoes, keep the skin on half of them.)

3. Submerge the potatoes in a bowl of cold water to keep them from turning brown while you are chopping them.

4. Cut the potatoes into similar-sized chunks so they will cook evenly: the cubes should be about 1½ to two inches wide.

5. Use a pot large enough to hold the potatoes with enough water to cover. Add salt, if desired. Place the pot over a high heat and bring the water to a boil. Reduce heat to simmer.

6. Simmer, covered, until tender--about 15 to 20 minutes. A knife tip inserted into a potato should meet no resistance; if the potato clings to the knife, the potatoes need to cook longer. When potatoes are done, remove from heat and drain immediately.

Quit MSN

I am quitting MSN since I am so annoyed for using it.
It always lagged when I using. Always disconnected. Always came up problems.
Since it sooo many problems. I decided to quit it.
I had deleted the MSN. Whoever want to find me just find me on FaceBook.
I promise I online every night on FB.
Yooohhoo..Sometimes FB is better to chat.


Well. I am QUIT!! 

Worth or Not

Sometime I am doubt on myself.
Is it worth to be so helpful but other don't feel grateful.
And their maybe just feel you are good to take advantages.
Sometime I am really doubt on people.
What they think when they see me do such silly thing.
Usually I don't say NO when people asking me to do something.
But sometime people really too much for asking me to do things they can do themselves.
Am I too easy to obey what people required?
Worth or not I doing this? I don't know.

But I will changes it. I treated this as my weak point and I am going to overcome it.
I shout out louder now!! I have rights to say NOOOOO!!
and I have the rights to reject what I don't want.

I DON'T BE THE ONE ACTING SILLY ANYMORE!!
I MAKE CHANGES ON MY LIFE.
CHEER UP!!